Oooo Food at 8:07 AM

Just sitting in the doctor's office, waiting for some unknown amount
of time. I hate when they don't give you some idea how long you have
to sit in that germ infested room, watching some random show on the
television.

Why do people applaud during cooking shows? I get the excitment during
Iron Chef. That show is intense. But how about Rachel Ray? "I'm just
going to add a litle bit of cheese." "Did you see that Doris? She
added cheese to the casarole. She's a true visionary!" *clap clap
clap* People go wild over every thing she added. Oh and add something
spicy or with alchol and forget it. That's some hardcore epicurian
t.v. going down there.

Grow A Pair at 9:28 AM

"Well it's your choice." "If you want to leave you can." "If you don't want to do this..."

How many times have you heard this toward the end of a relationship? The other person refuses to make a decision, determined to make you the one responsible for ending everything. They pick fights with you at every corner and get made when you deny them the argument. I've even know a guy to cheat, trying to force his bf into breaking up with him. WTF? It's like they have already given up on you and just can't find the courage to be the one to end it. You must be the one to walk away and then when you finally cave in they blame you for destroying what you had. Is this really the game that they want to play?

My favorite is when you actually do get broken up with and they then turn around and try to get you back. Not a few days or weeks down the road, but that same night. Why come running back to someone that is so willing to discard you and the relationship? Then they get upset when you refuse to be hurt again by them. It's baffling. Yeah I cared about you before, but you just broke up with me, that changes everything in a split second.

For me, once someone breaks up with me it's all different from that point on. I've gotten back with exes before, and sometimes it's been a good choice, but overall once the choice is made there is no going back. Some see a breakup as a bargaining tool. "We're in a fight? Well I'm breaking up with you, so there." Fights don't have to end in breakups. They're just an argument. But once those words are uttered it send a clear message. "I'm willing to give you up and willing to end our relationship at anytime." That's not the one I want. I want someone that would never think of ending our relationship. Someone that stands beside me even when we are yelling at each other and despite what is being said or what's going on, still cares for me and still feels strong in our relationship.

Grow a pair. Stand strong in a relationship and weather the storms, there will be a few in any pair's lives. When you do decide it's ending, don't make the other be the one to bare the burden. Finally, if you do take that step, live with your decision. You've broken what you had. Yes it can be glued back together but don't get mad when you find your alone.

Love!? (Late V-Day Post) at 9:16 AM

I've been misquoted a few times that I don't believe in love. I believe in love. It's an emotion, an attachment, and a powerful force. I think where the confusion comes from is when people realize that I don't believe it is something mystical. I don't believe in "the one" or some magical love that goes beyond this world we live in. That isn't to say however that I can't love, that I can't spend the rest of my life with one person, or that I am unable to sacrifice for a person I truly love.

Lately I've been hearing the word "love" being thrown around and bastardized. My friends are on the phone and tell their friends they love them. They explain how they still love their exes. They use love as a catch all for caring emotions. That's friendship and compassion. Outside my family there probably is one or two people I truly love. I would sacrifice everything for them, I would take a bullet to protect them and would come running if they called. That's love.

We hear the word love used so flippantly these days. Celebrities fall in and out of love daily. Songs spout out lyrics about love gained, lost, and rediscovered. That's right, I don't believe in that love. I believe in Love that is illogical, uncontrollable, inconvenient, and painful. Love that is not able to be fallin out of and love that is not casual. No I'm not a romantic, I'm just tired of the violation of a word that used to mean so much more.