I find myself feeling great distaste for people lately. Now I've always felt a little dissatisfied with other people but these last few weeks its been on the fore front of my mind. I'll be sitting in a restaurant, like tonight, and look around me and just feel let down and scared at the same time. People are sitting with their families or loved one, driving their min-van, content with their average lives. There's nothing wrong with average, and if they are happy so be it, but I get this overwhelming fear of becoming one of them. Content with my square house, doing a mundane job so that I can pay for all these things I'm told I want. It all just seems pointless and without purpose. What mark is being left by these sorts of lives? What impact are they having? I know this all sounds elitist and stuck up. I'm well aware of that. I'm just afraid I'll be too easily satisfied in life and not strive for something more than happiness. Being happy in one's life just doesn't seem to be enough anymore. I'm happy with my life, but should that be the goal?
2/2/10
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People like you are never normal. I don't think you could be if you tried. That gnawing feeling that you feel when you see people just "living" is your potential ready to shine and move everyone out of the way. I too feel the cold dark feeling that I could some day become average and live as just another human being in the crowd. But I know that's not what's going to happen because there is so much in me that I can't keep it. I suspect the same of you.
You should blog more :)
Not fair to post anonymous
There not anonymous but you still don't know me
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